Unravelling Conditioning

Over the last few days I have been unravelling some significant bits of conditioning.

For the last seven years, I have lived within an alternative community that has a high prevalence of polyamory. As someone with a monogamous heart this has been very challenging and filled with learning.

During my time and experiences with this community, I have stripped back my beliefs, my conditioning, my preconceived ideas about relationship and relating. I have totally torn down the walls of my world to see what is inside... I pulled down the walls of societal shoulds that lead me to blindly believe in monogamy and fairy tales. 
And somewhere along the line, in amongst the very healthy deconditioning from blind belief, I inadvertently took on some new cultural conditioning... Whoops!! I started to believe that if I'm not poly, I am somehow less emotionally evolved... That I have no right to ask monogamy of another because it would bind another ... That I should reject the idea of marriage because it is an archaic tradition... So over the last few days, I have been ripping down this alternative conditioning too... And the funny thing about tearing down the walls... I am left with Just Me... And guess what am I left with?

I am deeply monogamous!
I want to get married!
I want a husband and kids!
I want to have a beautiful wedding!
I want to live in a gorgeous home with my husband, our kids and our dogs!
Oh yes I do! 
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New vision
Awakened sight
Remembered knowing
Reaching the light...